Has watching made it impossible for me to get off with my boyfriend? Help!!!?

When I was in my mid-teen years I started watching and eventually bought myself an insertable vibrator. For a couple of years now I've been getting off while watching and never thought it related very seriously to my actual ual desires as the nature of the I watched was fairly (gangbang/ stuff I don't believe I would ever actually want to do). At the same time, I've never really been ually attracted to another person, and speculated that I may be aual as a result of being depressed from adolescence onward. None of this has bothered me until recently. I tried being in a relationship with a guy I really like, think is very attractive, and wanted very badly to be with. Whenever we try to be together I have a really hard time getting turned on and if I manage it at all I can't stay turned on. I want things to work out, but it's very frustrating for him and I don't think our relationship will have a ghost of a chance if he doesn't feel like he can turn me on at all. Could this be related to my viewing of , or is it more likely that my drive is significantly lowered by my depression (auality is also on the table)? What can I do about it?